There are about six weeks left until the official end date of my Emily project on May 15. It has occurred to me several times during the current situation that Emily would have fared very well given the same situation as she was already practicing self isolating as a way of life. A dear friend sent me a meme that has been making its way around social media with ED’s photo, encouraging people to emulate her. It definitely brought a smile to my face.
I am not in the least prophetic but this project has had me oddly prepared, mostly as it has trained me to look beneath the surface on a regular basis. In reference to my last post on finding meaning in suffering and in life in general, I might say that my core message to myself and others is “look deeper, learn more, expand your sense of internal wonder. The landscape inside you is unending. It can be frightening, but with the light of God inside you it can be an eternal refuge, a library, a source of peace and comfort for you and others.”
We each have gifts to offer right now. Really and Truly. I just hung a bookmark with the icon of Creation that says : “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” ~Ephesians 2:10
This verse is not new to my understanding, but it struck me afresh that we have been created for good things and I intend to do them to the best of my ability. So for the next six weeks my goal is to continue to connect with the works of Emily and finish a few related projects. I am keeping the list small and focused because even though in some ways I have more time right now, my emotional and mental energy is a bit depleted.
*I have a series of tiny watercolor and micron pen paintings that I started, each based on one of her poems. I have done six so far, and will hopefully finish six more. My goal was to have one for each month of the year.
*There is also a plan to do a series of block prints related to certain poems. I did a robin in January but would like to do a few more: perhaps a hummingbird, an oriole, and a few botanical themed prints.
* Emily wrote lots of letters. LOTS of them. I am hoping to send a few off to dear ones in the coming weeks. Reading her letters has been one of the best parts of this project.
* In her spirit of baking treats and lowering baskets to neighborhood children, choosing a couple of local charities to donate to right now is important to help our neighbors in tangible ways. Also, my daughter and I are baking more than usual right now.
* Working in the garden. Emily was a gardener of the highest caliber. I do not hope to reach her abilities in that arena, but will hopefully bring a bit of happiness to the bees in my husband’s hive and some other pollinators through my efforts.
If you feel overwhelmed in this time, please reach out to someone. Let them remind you that you are here for good things. It is not a bad time to investigate what your gifts are if you are not clear. And if that seems like too much, just focus on something tangible that you can experience through your senses. Feel the soapy water in the sink, look at the pattern on the back of a mason bee, listen to the everyday house and yard sounds, enjoy the taste (and vitamin C) of a pineapple, smell the scent of brownies or something else good that is baking. You are a MIRACLE!
Love and so much peace to you, friends,